Before the deadline!
Now, how did these self-tapes that I actually submitted before the deadline look? That’s a story for a never happening day.
Ou, 22:22. Is that quadruple the luck?
My head is hurting… again. I’m pretty sure these headaches are an extension of my digestive issues, the whole gut-brain axis. I haven’t read into the link between headaches and stomach trouble yet, but I know that it must exist, as I experience it.
Aïe. Aïe. Aïe. Let me go to bed and hope that I feel better by morning. I’m trying to get an override into an 8am class. Yes, I’m that girl. I’ve been that girl. In college, fresh out of high school, I willingly signed up for 8am classes, and now, ten years since finishing college, as a full-ish grown adult taking some courses for fun at a local community college, I still prefer morning classes.
Let me get on in bed.
Eeek! I’m SO geeked about my schedule. Oh wait, let me use that override code from the piano professor to get official enrolled in her course. Then, in the morning, God-willing, I’ll get one from the photography professor for his course. Even if I don’t get Introduction to Photography, which is a better time-fit for my schedule than the Intermediate Yoga in which I’m currently enrolled, I’m still geeked about my fall school schedule! Oh how I missed being a scholar.
I’m extremely grateful that God is making a way for me to be a part-time student while pursuing acting in Los Angeles. I couldn’t solely work. I couldn’t solely pursue acting. I don’t know, I need to go… to bed.
Goodness, my head hurts. TK, please, don’t eat in a way that will continue to upset your stomach tomorrow. You thought you were doing good yesterday, after your first day of classes, going to Sweetgreen, but that was way too much for your already troubled stomach to process, my baby. Please. Bone broth. Water. Rice, if you must. Or, applesauce, if you absolutely must. Maybe even crackers… then again, no on the crackers. You don’t know how not to eat the whole box, land your darn tail right back where you were before: in pain!
Bone broth. Water. That’s all you need for the next 24 hours.
But yeah, look at you girl, finally trying to get over that crippling anxiety or overthinking or whatever tf you got going on that caused you to miss the deadline for the first two self-tape auditions that you were invited to submit.
You submitted two whole self-tape auditions today. Admittedly, they were very non-traditional, relaxed, basically conversational, “self-tape auditions” that required no performance of dialogue nor thought of eye lines, but they were self-tape submissions on Actors Access nonetheless. You pressed record on your camera and submit on the computer, before the deadline! Now, keep doing it!
Oh, stop taking gigs that you KNOW you don’t want to do… what in the world were you thinking telling Matthew that you’re available to come on as support at the restaurant on game days this football season?! Girl, bye! You are breathing, babe. You’re okay. Your rent is paid and the funds for the following months are already in your account. I promise you, when your first boyfriend told you, “one thing ‘bout you, TK, you always go’on be a’ight,” he was not lying! YOU WILL ALWAYS BE ALRIGHT! You make sure of it, you’ve always made sure of it. Now, please, decipher between need and not letting yourself breathe. You don’t need to go work those football watch parties at Brian’s restaurant, you’re trying to not let yourself breathe!
You’re a part-time student and you’re pursuing a career in acting. The gigs that you already get are enough to sustain you and your pursuits in this moment. STOP DOING OTHER SHIT AS A DISTRACTION! This is your first semester back in school. Don’t fill fall with gigs you don’t even need. Go email Matthew right now and rescind your availability. Right now. Yes, you adore working with him and the chef for whom he coordinates and everyone he books and the rooms you’re in w/ them are different from rooms you’d otherwise put yourself in, but SO WHAT?! That’s not where your focus is and it’s only taking away from where your focus needs to be at this time. (It would be a different story if you couldn’t pay your bills; YOUR BILLS ARE PAID). Go.
You’re going to press publish on this random acting blog post about auditioning that totally drifted away from talking about auditioning, you’re going to drop Intermediate Yoga and add Elementary Piano, then you’re going to email Matthew and let him know to scratch you off the list of available Saucy Bird special event servers. On a day that you’re available, you’ll go dine in Saucy Bird as a guest to show your care and appreciation for the number of events you’ve enjoyed working with Plated Chefs at Sothebys. You are grateful, however, you don’t have to hop up and sign on to every offer from a person simply because you like him.
Ou child, that 22:22 has rolled right into the twenty-three hundred hour, hasn’t it?!
Let me go to bed fr.. swap those courses, email Matthew..
AROUNDwithTK is where I get it off my chest these days. Anything. Today, acting auditions via self-tape. Tomorrow, …nothing. Well, we’ll hope there’s not too many nothing days. I’m TK and I hope to see you around.